My Twin... & Harleys?!

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the best you can whatever it might be if this is your first time to the show welcome welcome welcome kind of how we do things is we give you a little bit of housekeeping stuff here in the beginning and then I'm going to teach today we're talking about my twin talking about my twin because sometimes we look like this I can't put the stupid thing on god bless america sorry I guess this case mexico uh sometimes we look like this sometimes we look like god almighty this this is what we look like and then sometimes we look like this and all of it here's the point today all of it

is because there's often these different versions of us there's these different parts of us that are sorry my hair is wild I know there's these different things if it's still the same person but we're wrestling with these different sides of us so today we're talking about wrestling with our twin and um I don't know I just felt like bringing the wrestling mask because why not oh I gotta do a few things y'all have been asking about Harley Davidson I want to see some Harleys I want to see some hogs that's what you said you need to see a hog I need to see that two-wheel mobile out there on them mean streets so okay we're gonna do that I could not go into the Harley store I know I know the black ox is not going to be happy with me about that but here's the thing because I was like number one

I don't want it I can impulse buy I impulse bought those masks okay but number two I didn't want to be like hey hey there ma'am sir I'm just filming your showroom what you filming it for the pando at where's that shown you know so anyhow uh I was but I did go on youtube ripped some stuff off there gonna show that also of course I can't talk about wrestling with my twin and not show some wrestling of course that's gonna be the end of the episode as well and as always we're back with a full episode this week ladies and gents ladies and gents all over the US of A we are back with a full episode that means full shout outs are back this week got me a

this is a prime supernova several of you have asked about the primes it's literally just like a Gatorade just a whole heck of a lot less calories and uh I've loved them since they come out I've been an early adapter I mean because my son and then I was like these are actually really good a few housekeeping things really quick discipleship course we're gonna be putting that out I'm hoping in the next few weeks I gotta write stuff with them I'm gonna take these sermons that I've done a couple probably a couple months ago at our church it's really just like discipleship style stuff so I'm gonna take those but I have to write stuff with it so it's taking a little bit of time but that's coming out soon I'll let you know several of you have asked hey why don't we put 41 on the Pando app my book 41 that I did

which I know a few of you have why don't we put that on the Pando app and here's just the truth of the matter it's incredibly expensive to do that and right now we just really can't afford to do that as a church it is super expensive maybe one day what else what else we got oh America won the gold in hockey and men and women so I just feel like free bird is appropriate I feel like just free bird is appropriate and what else what else I'm growing my hair out not that anybody cares if you're writing me if you write me that That's how you get a shout out. If you write me response, time is about six weeks and I'm going to listen. I've told you guys from the beginning, I just want to be honest and open with you. So what I'm having to do now is there's probably like eight or nine or 10 people that are helping me just put them in the system. All right. So I have a system that I put them in because there's so many different companies. You might write me and let's say I don't get it for six. I just read one the other day, literally from the beginning of January. And the point is that it takes about six weeks for me to get it.

From you to write back and for you to get it. So be patient with it. Also I should have brought man. I'm learning so much about that whole thing and it can be frustrating. I'm not going to be like that because I love you guys. And I told you, Hey, I'm going to do it. I read every single one, respond to them. So it really helps me build my faith. I usually do that in the first half of the week and then the second half is kind of more focused on Sundays. But what was I saying with that? Oh man, please, please, please make sure you're writing legibly your numbers, man. We've, we've gotten several that have come back like undeliverable, like that kind of stuff. And it's like, I don't really know what to do at that point. So please make sure you're just writing legibly the best you can of, Hey, here's my number. Here's especially that crap that gets sent. I shouldn't say crap, especially the stuff gets sent to like one of the, like the, like the centers, like in Tampa or stuff like that where they scan it in and it goes to your tablet. Oh my God. Oh my gosh. Are they frustrating? I mean, they're, that's more frustrating. What's it more frustrating than I don't know what's more frustrating than anyhow. One other thing also, Brett Wallenberg, I'm going to say this, a heartfelt prayer since your mom just passed away and you just found out. I want to be super respectful here, Brett. And just say, man, I'm so sorry. So, so sorry to hear about your loss. I can't imagine what it's like taking that news from behind bars and just let you know, man, we're praying with you. And so many of you say, Hey, we're praying for champions. So right now, I mean, we've got 76,000 of our closest friends watching this. And I encourage you, man, if you are thinking about you're watching this, let's stop for just a moment and pray for Brett, what he's feeling,

what he's going through. Several of you know that pain of losing family members while you're behind bars. And it just, man, I just really, I got that note this week. I was like, man, I want to make sure I stop and say something right here in the beginning. Just say, man, we're praying for you. We pray for peace. We pray for comfort in some way. And just like these moments where grieving is completely okay and normal that you'll just feel God through all of it as well, brother. All right. So there's no really easy shift from there. We're going to do shout outs at the end. I think that's it for housekeeping. And yeah, let's jump into it. Wrestling, wrestling with my twin bull. Woo. I got away sometimes. I mean, I got, sometimes I feel like there's about four different versions of me running around inside of me. Right. Anybody else feel like that? Like there's like the 17 year old that I never grew up. There's the one who wants to be old. I don't want to go through all the other ones. Cause you might be like, whoa, Trev. But there's definitely, I just feel that a ton is I feel like I'm wrestling all of these different versions of me and it's like, all right, what's the version of me that God, like that's the true me. That's the true DNA that he has given me. And that's what we're going to talk about today. So let's jump into it. Mysterio right in front of me. Mysterio had eyes in the back of his head. Mysterio's quick watch. He's going to fly up over the top of the top rope. It's going to be something nuts. From the top rope of Hurricanrana or reverse Hurricanrana from behind. It's Rey Mysterio scaling the cage. Mysterio's back out here and he's looking to make a big impact. From the top of the cage.

Over the top. The somersault flip. I've never seen anything like this. All right. So in 1886 a Scottish author, author, author named Robert Stevenson published a short novel titled The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Now it was originally released in London and within a few months, this saying became an absolute cultural phenomenon. And by the 1900s, it had been adapted into stage productions across Europe and America. And over the next, um, what I, however many times, I don't know how long it's been since then do the math, but over a hundred film adaptations have been made from it. And that phrase Jekyll and Hyde entered into everyday language, meaning there's someone with two conflicting sides. Now critics and literary scholars have long pointed out that this wasn't just a book, like a horror book of Dr. Jekyll and Hyde. It was exposing something deeply human that we can recognize in ourselves. That's why it came out all those years ago. And we can talk about. it now, because most of us, we don't need a Victorian novel, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde to explain the tension that's within us. We've lived it. We are living it. One version of you that wants better and another version of you that made choices you can't undo. It's the battle, I say it like this, it's the battle of two versions of yourself. And maybe it's not Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde for you, alright? So we can go a little bit, fast forward 80 years or so to the creation of the Incredible

Hulk. And this guy, Bruce Banner, is brilliant and he's calm until anger triggers something enormous inside of him. And the monster was not created out of thin air, it was already in him waiting for the right moment to show itself. Maybe it's not the Incredible Hulk. Maybe it's Clark Kent, introduced in 1938 in Action Comics number one. There's a mild-mannered reporter until the phone booth, until the reveal and he goes from Clark Kent to Superman. You okay? My personal favorite, Bruce Wayne and Batman, billionaire philanthropists, yes, God, please try me, by day and vigilante by night. Okay, rack them up, rack them up, rack them up, rack them up. Okay, that's not good. I can't breathe. Now there's a Batman. Ooh, you wanna play, come on. Come on. He missed. Now these stories, they endure because they're not really just about monsters and cave. You know this. They're about the tension that is inside of us, these two versions of us, to have one side that is confident and courageous and another side that's fearful and questioning. One side that believes God 100% and another side that seems to always hesitate in trusting Him. One side that says, I will follow you, Jesus, anywhere. And another side that did not expect the cross He told us to carry to look like this. And if we're honest, we know this is not just psychology, it's not just books or comics or movies or series. This is actually pretty biblical, that if you go into the Bible, you'll see, use Simon

Peter for an example. He's bold enough to step onto water in Matthew 14. And yet hours later in the gospels, it feels like he's denying Jesus by a charcoal fire or Moses. He goes up to Mount Sinai and receives the Ten Commandments from God. And as soon as he comes down from the mountain, he sees what the people are doing and he smashes the tablets. And in one moment in God's glory, the next moment, anger has taken care of him. You see it in David, the shepherd who faced Goliath. 1st Samuel 17 was the same man who later crumbled morally in 2nd Samuel 11. You see it in Elijah. We talked about this quite a few times, calling down fire in heaven in 1st Kings 18, and then asking God to take his life in 1st Kings 19. And you see it with a man in scripture named Thomas, who the scripture would call him the twin. But I think that in this story of Thomas, it's something that all of us can relate to, because in one moment, I love this, one moment, Thomas, he is courageous as all get out. He is trusting God with everything. When everyone else doesn't want to trust God, Thomas is trusting God. But then there's another moment where we see this twin of Thomas, if you will, the same guy that went from courageous would go to questioning and doubting. I want to show you this in scripture. I never just want you to take my word for it. So here's where I want to go. John chapter 11. Now, if you've never read the Bible, it's right here on the Pando app. There's a little button at the bottom. You can read it there. We're going to go to John chapter 11. I'm going to jump way into the story.

John 11 is a great, great story for you to read and to have fun with and all that kind of stuff. But for sake of time, I'm going to put it on the screen and we're only going to read a very small portion. All right. And then I'm going to show you the other side of it. So we're going to start. Jesus was speaking about Lazarus's death, but the disciples presumed he was talking about natural sleep. Then Jesus made it plain to them, Lazarus is dead. And for your sake, I'm glad I wasn't there because now you have another opportunity to see who I am so that you will learn to trust in me. Come, let's go and see him. I love that Jesus is saying here, let me just point this out really, really, really quick. Jesus is saying, listen, even in opportunities that you don't understand why it's happening, it's just another moment where we can trust God. It's just another moment where we can put faith in him. It's another moment where we can call this, this just sound the alarm. Maybe I should say like that, like, hold on, hold on. This isn't the obstacle I'm wanting to go through, but it is an opportunity for us to trust God. Man, I love that. All right. Now watch this next part. This is the whole reason we're preaching this of wrestling with my twin. Watch this next part. So Thomas nicknamed the twin remark to the others, let's go so that we can die with them. Notice that he is saying, all right, let me back up. I got to give a little bit of context because you're like, wait, Lazarus is dying. Now he's going to die again for sake of time.

I'm not going to read all of John 11, but right before this, when Lazarus is sick and then Jesus gets the news, he's like, Hey, we're going to go see him. All the disciples said this, Hey, why are we going? Because last time we were there, they tried to kill you, Jesus. Like, why are we going back to Bethany? Last time we were there, they tried to kill you. And Jesus is like, no, no, no, this is another opportunity. That's where we jump in. So all the disciples were like, let's not do this. Let's not go. I know Lazarus is your friend. I know you love him, but let's not go because the last time we were there, they tried to kill you. And then Jesus is like, no, we are going. And this is an opportunity to trust me and learn more about me. And then Thomas is like this, this statement of faith. Thomas says, you know what, if, if, if Jesus is going to die, we'll die with him. If he says we're going, I'm going. So it's this massive fit. Like that's the kind of friends you need, right? That's the kind of brothers you need. That's the kind of sisters you need. That's some community you need. Like, Hey, listen, I don't think it's a good idea, but if you say we're going, we're going, I've got your back. I'm loyal. I'm there. That's who Thomas is. But now fast forward in time, a little bit, leaving the story of Lazarus. That's John 11.

Let's go all the way to John 20, John chapter 20 is where I want to go next. Let me pull it up here in my notes. This is the most, the most infamous moment that you would hear about Thomas. All right, let's read it here. John 20, one of the 12 wasn't present when Jesus appeared to them. Oh, let me back up. Sorry. This is after the resurrection. Jesus has died. Went through the whole passion week. He has died on Friday. He has rose again on Sunday. This is after all of that stuff. Okay. Now the disciples, all of them were afraid because they were confused. They're like, what in the world? And here's what we know. I know I'm talking way fast today. Sorry. I just, I just slammed. I mean, straight suck the sides in on an energy drink right before we hit record. Okay. So I'm like, woo. With a tear in my eye, I'm going to tell y'all with a tear in my eye. I'm feeling it. Um, anyhow, what were you saying? What were we saying? Dang. What were we saying? I was going fast.

Ric Flair. What was I? Oh, all the disciples, all of the disciples, all of them. That's all of them. All the disciples were afraid because they were confused. Here's what we know. When things happen that we're not expecting or when things happen that shake us, confusion oftentimes follows that. But here's what I love. Jesus doesn't leave you in that and it's like, hey, well get your crap together and when you get your crap together, then you can come to me. No, Jesus actually pursues you in it. That's how good of a God that he is, all right? So Jesus has shown himself to the disciples. He's already showed up to the disciples, but when that happened, there was one of them that was not present and that's what we're reading. One of the 12 wasn't present when Jesus appeared to them. It was Thomas, whose nickname was the twin. I want us to see this. Thomas, whose nickname was the twin. So the disciples informed him, we have seen the Lord with our eyes. Still unconvinced, Thomas replied, there's no way I'm going to believe this unless I personally see the wounds of the nails in his hands, touch them with my finger

and put my hand into the wounds of his side where he was pierced. Then eight days later, Thomas and all the others were in the house together and even though all the doors were locked, Jesus suddenly stood before them. Peace to you, he said. Here's why Jesus has to say that because if he starts walking just in the room when everything's locked up, you're probably gonna be a little creeped out. So he's like, listen, peace be to you. Then notice this next part, y'all. Please, please, please don't miss this. Please don't miss this. Then looking into Thomas's eyes, looking into Thomas's eyes, that is so key. He said, put your finger here where the wounds of my hands. Here, put your hand into my wounded side and see for yourself. Thomas, don't give into your doubts any longer. Just believe. Then the words spilled out of his heart. You are my Lord and you are my God. And Jesus responded, Thomas, now that you've seen me, you believe. But there are those who have never seen me with their eyes but have believed in me with their hearts and they will be even more blessed. Thomas, the one who said, if Jesus is going in John 11, we are going even if we die,

was the same man who said, I don't believe Jesus is alive after the... He said, I don't even care what y'all say. I don't believe that. One moment, maybe you can relate. We're trusting God and another moment, we are doubting that he is as good as people say that he is. Is this wrestling match with us? Is this wrestling with our twin? One version says this, one version says this. One side of us is all in for God and the other side of us is founded on our doubts and our issues and our problems and our feelings and our selfishness. And we have to talk about this. We have to be honest about this, that all of us have this twin that we're wrestling with because if we don't, we can end up giving ourself false labels when we're really just wrestling with our twins. So I'm gonna give you five things from the story. Number one is this, the twin of labels. Now, if you've been around church, you might have heard Thomas referred to as doubting Thomas, but scripture never calls him that. John is sure to know Thomas nicknamed the twin or Thomas called Didymus, which means the twin. And I just think that just, I love that John put that in there because it lines up for someone who's following Jesus.

Again, there's one version of you that loves God and there's another version of you that loves your own ways. I'm gonna talk more about this in a minute. You're getting the point, right? But I need to address the label first because he's commonly called doubting Thomas. He is labeled off of eight days of his life. He only doubted eight days. And I don't know about you, I don't want to be labeled off of eight days of my life. He was still a disciple of Christ. He still passed out the loaves and the fishes, saw countless healings, that story of Lazarus. He would watch Lazarus come back to life and walk out of the grave. He would hear with his own ears, Jesus teaching the Sermon on the Mount. Like Thomas still did all that stuff, yet we label him off just a few days of his life. Do you see how screwed up that is of us? But maybe you can relate because there's one version of you that you've been labeled off a few days of your life that you made some massive mistakes. And somewhere along the way, you took that label and that label became a twin that you're wrestling with all the time. Some of us, we were called too much. We were labeled too much, too emotional, too loud, too needy, too intense.

You're just too much. Others of us, we were labeled not enough. You're not smart enough. You're not spiritual enough. You're not pretty enough, Trev. Oh God, I hated that one. I've never been that fine. Trying to be like Leonardo DiCaprio. Anyhow, I'm not disciplined enough. I'm not this or whatever it might be. And some of you are wrestling with the twin of that mistake I just said. And you're labeled this, an inmate, a felon, an offender, violent, a monster. The one who ruined everything. The one that everybody. forgot about no one visits. Sometimes that label came from a parent who was overwhelmed. Sometimes it came from a coach as someone said something over years ago, and you carry that. Maybe it was from a spouse or someone that you love, a family member. Sometimes, man, listen, sometimes it's from someone in church and sometimes it could be even you carry this label that becomes your twin because your own internal narration that never shuts its mouth. And here's the thing, those names stick and they become this twin that follows us into every room. And that is a wrestling match we have to be honest about. You're just going through your day, trying to just do your time and move on. And you still hear that other name whispering to you. You're nothing but the screw up. You're nothing but the one who doesn't even deserve a thing. You're nothing but just a doubter. You say you believe in God, but you know, in your heart, you feel like you don't. But there is another voice. Please hear me. There is another voice. I don't want you to miss this. That comes directly from the spirit of God that we all have as disciples of Christ, according to Romans chapter eight. Thank you, Jesus. That voice does not come from your past. That

voice does not come from your performance. That voice does not fluctuate with your worst days or even your worst mistakes. It is the names that God almighty speaks over you, wherever you are out there in Pando land. He says this about you. Hear me, please. He calls you beloved, chosen son or daughter forgiven. He calls you redeemed. He calls you more than a conqueror, a new creation, a friend, an ambassador for the kingdom. He calls you light of the world and salt of the earth. He does not call you. Hear me your worst moments. He looks you in the eye and he calls you his. And this is where the wrestling lives right here with the twin of the names you were given and the name that he is giving you. We have to wrestle with that. Am I going to trust what God has said? Am I going to live from the name that God has given me or the label that others have given me? Now, practically, let me tell you how to walk this out. Bring Jesus into the conversation about this. If you do not name this with him, I don't know if it's possible for you to walk it out and wrestle that twin and win, right? So here's what I want to tell you to do. Talk to him about it. Man, how do I say this clearly? I was going to read it straight from my notes, but I just want you to know my heart. God, this is what they call me. They call me a monster. They call me violent. They call me screwed up. I'm trying to get better at my language. They call me these things. I call myself forgotten. I call myself overlooked. Whatever it might be, you need to be honest with Jesus about these things. You need to be honest with him about these things. And then, and then, like, God, I don't want to be labeled as this. I don't want to be this. And then here's what I would do. I'm going to put these in the description so you can go read them. I want you to read Psalm 139, 1-18, 1 John 4, 7-19, Romans 8, 31-39, Ephesians 2, 1-10, John 15, 9-19, Psalm 136, 1-9, and then 23-26. Here is why. Why would I have you read those? Because you need to hear that's how he sees you. That's how he sees you. Especially if you're living with these labels, man, you need to see that is how he sees you. Again, I'll put those in the description so you can have those and, and, and really just feed your heart, bring that label up and then feed your heart on those scriptures. Okay. There's no replacement for the word of God. Never, never miss us. Even this cool stuff we get to do here. There's no replacement for the word of God. Okay, here we go. The next twin that we are going to wrestle with is the twin of clarity and the twin of confusion. Okay. The twin of clarity and the twin of confusion.

Now let's go to John 14. Okay. John 14. Jesus is speaking to the disciples here. John 14. Here's what he says. He goes, listen, don't worry or surrender to your fear for you've believed in God. Now trust and believe in me also. My father's house has many dwelling places. If it were otherwise, I would tell you plainly because I go to prepare a place for you and when everything is ready, I will come back and take you to myself so that you will be with me where I am. Notice this next part. And you already know the way to the place that I'm going. Thomas literally cuts in here. Thomas butts into the conversation and he says to Jesus, master, we don't know where you're going. So how could we know the way there? Jesus explained, I am the way I am the truth and I am the life. No one comes next to the father except through union with me. To know me is to know my father. Jesus goes, Hey, y'all know the way. And Thomas, I love Thomas is like, well, I know you're in the middle of a car I know you're in the middle of giving us this great things right now It's almost like Thomas I looks around to to like the rest of disciples. Like do y'all know what he's talking about? Do y'all know what he's talking about? And he's like, um Sorry, sorry to interrupt Jesus you say we know the way and Thomas is like Lord, we don't know the way we do not know where you're going. Like how how can we know the way and I just love Thomas his Honesty here that that he voices what everyone else is thinking. Now. What what does that matter of the wrestling with this twin? Because there's a twin inside of us that hears the words of God and all of who we are says Yes And amen Like we understand what God's teaching to us whether it's through a podcast like this or a sermon or whatever might be like God I hear you Yes And then there's a whole nother side of us that when God says things through a teaching you're like, I don't understand Any of this is this wrestling now? Growing in faith is not pretending you understand It's actually bringing confusion into the room with Jesus just like Thomas did so if you wrestle with hey

Some things are super clear and and some things I don't understand. Listen, here's what I tell you to seek clarity Don't just turn a blind eye to it because the danger is you begin to coddle a shallow weak faith I know that's harsh, but I want you to hear my heart the fact that Thomas speaks up gives us one of the most monumental truths and the whole entire Christian faith if if Thomas does not ask Jesus What are you talking about? We don't have I'm sure God would in his sovereignty would have somehow got it to us But think about this John 14 6 is one of the most Monumental verses in all of Scripture where Jesus makes it clear. I'm the way I'm the truth I'm the life and you cannot get to the Father except through me. Jesus gives us Incredible exclusivity here in the thing. Like listen, there aren't many paths of God It's only through me is what Jesus says. The only way we have that verse is because Thomas asked a question So I want to say this What is on the other side of what you see clarity on like, you know, what are you gonna wrestle like? Okay, I understand this. I don't understand what this will wrestle with that twin of you'd like, you know what? There's some things I don't understand. I want to understand so many of you write me asking questions. That's what I want That's what I want like to help you grow in your relationship to understand things better My brother Jonathan Brandon, but I've never I mean this man I should write a book by how many questions this man asked me, but you know what? Here's what I love about it He's seeking truth. Sometimes he tries to stump me, but he's seeking truth I hear his heart through his writings of well, what about this? What about this man ask those questions? There is nothing nothing wrong with it. And let me say this kindly If you think you understand it all be really careful Be really careful. If you think you understand everything be really really careful I've never met anyone in genuine faith understand everything that they're hearing God speak to them And here's why because I think God wants us to dig deeper. He wants us to dig deeper He doesn't want shallow and if you're like, well, I get it. I get it. I see I see it. Whoa. Whoa, cowboy. Oh Whoa, I'd hold up a little bit on that. I'm gonna tell you right now. I'm not the standard of anything But I sure as heck do not understand everything and I love I it's when we wrestle with this twin of clarity and confusion It's taking us deeper in union with him, that's the whole point and we don't get stuff to win arguments

That's freaking stupid, right? Like I hate when people try to debate me and like 98% of them are Christians I'm I dude have a nice warm glass of shut your friggin mouth like and none of that's not you guys for the record I'm talking about just people on the outside always want to you know Be some who they remind me of on on a YouTube video or something, you know Some freaking some basement theologian this that's you know, still living with his mother and he's 35 I'm I dude have a nice warm glass of shut your friggin mouth Okay, but because here's the thing it's never meant for us to debate It's meant for us to grow in relationship with Jesus think about this the more you understand about somebody the closer you get to them The more that you know about them the more you trust them. That is the whole point of why we seek Understanding and wisdom. I love this Proverbs chapter 4 says this get wisdom get understanding Do not forget my words or turn away from them the beginning of wisdom is this get wisdom? I love this the beginning of wisdom is this like start it like go for it And then it says though it costs you all you have get understanding. I wrote this down Understanding is grasping the deeper meaning and purpose while wisdom is the application of this of this truth. Maybe I should say like this Understanding is grasping the deeper meaning purpose of truth while wisdom is the application of truth that's what we have to get understanding is the deeper meaning and purpose of God's truth while wisdom is the application of this truth and he says listen get the wisdom which means this seek him for it one of my favorite verses in all scripture James 1 5 says if any of us lack wisdom ask God he won't rebuke you for asking because your failures and your faults he says literally just ask him so the question is this will we feed into our pride that says well I know everything I don't need to know anything or will we be honest like hey there's some stuff I don't understand and Lord I'm seeking you for that not just for the knowledge but because of this rubber like let me say like because of this relationship I should say that can grow more and more and more the more you know someone the more you trust them and if that's true with just regular just old just old you know people walking around then how much more true is that with God all right let me read that verse to you if anyone longs to be wise ask God for wisdom and

he will give it he won't see your lack of wisdom as an opportunity to scold you over your failures but he will overwhelm your failures I love this with his generous grace thank you Jesus thank you Lord all right all right here we go the next one let me jump down we're gonna go back to John 20 okay so we're going back to John 20 you know what I was gonna skip this one let's not skip it the twin of community and isolation now no that sounds a little weird with you behind bars you're like I'm in isolation I am shut off hear my heart John 20 again one of the twelve wasn't present when that when Jesus appeared to them it was Thomas whose nickname was the twin now that line of Thomas not being present absolutely is haunting to me that's the best I know to say because I've learned the twin inside of us that is hurting or confused often withdrawals and isolation you know this amplifies everything that is all that you're already feeling isolation will convince you that that doubt is permanent but it is not it is just as loud or it's incredibly loud I should say like that because you're alone now let's not pretend that these realities don't exist incarceration is literal isolation and some of you are in solitary right now some of you are emotionally isolated in your dorm right now some of you stopped writing home because shame got so loud and you felt so isolated but I want to remind you of this you are not alone this right here exists this community exists Jesus still walks into locked rooms like he did here because he is passionate about about going after you and it's the heart posture it's the heart posture that says all right Lord if you want to bring someone good people into my life I am open to it if you want to bring someone that is positive and can help me grow my relationship I am open to it and I know that word isn't for everybody but if you know hey I've closed myself off to everyone maybe it's time that you say you know what Lord I'm already in physical isolation I don't want my heart to be in isolation as well and I'm just asking that you'll bring the right person I'll say this if you write me I will read it and write you back 100% all right now what we talked about earlier in the opener a lot of that stuff can get screwed up so don't be like well I

knew it come on now don't don't feed into those doubts right now let's go to the next one the twin of honest questions and hardened ultimatums honest questions and hardened ultimatums all right so let's read here so the disciples informed him we have seen the Lord with our own eyes but still unconvinced notice this Thomas replies there's no way I'm going to believe this unless I personally see the wounds of the nails and of his hand sorry touch them with my finger and put my hand into the wound on his side where he was pierced notices his tone has changed there's no way unless I see unless I touch I will not believe that's not the same tone of Thomas and John 14 where he just is asking notice the shift earlier on his questions hey we don't we don't know the way but you know like show us now he's setting conditions there's a difference between wrestling with God and putting God on trial there is a difference and the twin without within us can move from vulnerable to defensive against God very quickly let me tell you this there is no win in that stay honest in your question questions not hardened in your ultimatums all right honest in your questions not hardening your ultimatums the next one the last one is the twin of faith and disappointment we cannot talk about Thomas and not talk about that twin the version of us we've said this a hundred times that says I will follow you Jesus anywhere in John 11 whatever you ask me to do the answers yes whatever you ask me to sacrifice the answers yes wherever you lead me Jesus I will follow I am yours there is that version of us but we also know if you if you You have lived more than a week. There's a version of us, there are times where you wonder if all you have believed about God and Jesus are even real because we know this life is messy. Life is always lifin'. Things don't turn out how maybe we thought we would. Prayers seemingly go unanswered at times and you aren't sure if or maybe why God has allowed these things to happen. That version of you says still no matter what I trust you God that you are good and this

twin of yours says I don't know. My disappointment seems to be overriding my faith. And this is where Thomas is in this and if you can relate to him, I gently want to give you some practical point, practical inputs, points I guess works too. Disappointment hits hardest where devotion ran deepest. Disappointment hits hardest where devotion ran deepest. His courage was flipped not because he was a coward but because he was wounded and disappointed. Think of everything Thomas saw. All that Thomas watched play out before him. Think about that. All the miracles, everything. And then for it just to unravel in just a few short days. Even think about this Judas who sells Jesus out. That was one of Thomas' like closest brothers if you will and he betrays the Messiah. I mean he was with Judas for three years and they trusted him. Disappointment hits hardest where devotion ran deepest. And inside prison, disappointment maybe often sounds like this, God why didn't you stop me from making that mistake? Why didn't you protect my family and my kids? Why did you let this happen? Jesus, why didn't you answer that prayer when I asked you to help me and forgive me and just get me through this? So if that's the twin you are wrestling with, here's what I want you to know, man I'm hooked You have to be brutally honest with God. Not accusing, not pretending, but you need to be brutally honest with God. Say things like this, it feels like you left me. It feels like you didn't keep your word. I know that isn't true, but this is what it feels like. God is not afraid of your honesty. The Psalms are full of them.

You heard me how many times tell you to feed your heart in the Psalms. Now, I want you to notice how Jesus treats that twin, if you will, of Thomas. He doesn't rebuke him. When he appears to him, he doesn't rebuke him. He doesn't compare him to others, be like, hey, you're a big screw up and all these people are great. He does not say, Thomas, why in the literal frick are you like this? He doesn't say any of that. It says this, I want to read it to you, then looking into Thomas's eyes, he said, put your finger where the wounds in my hands are, here, put your hand in my wounded side and see for yourself. Thomas, don't give yourself to the doubts any longer. Just believe. It says he looked him in the eyes and in that culture to look away, it would have been to reject him, to lift their head and to look in their eyes would have been restore him. And Jesus looks him in his eyes. Jesus was saying in Matthew six, if you remember the eyes are the lamp into the whole body. If your eye is healthy, your whole body is full of light. He looks him in the eyes. Why? Because Jesus is the light of the world. He looks him into the eyes to bring light into Thomas's grief, darkness, that disappointment, that failure feeling that he has. He looks him in the eyes. And here's the thing. He makes a declaration from that moment. Remember the word spilled out of him, right? You are my Lord and my God. Why? I believe it's because Jesus looked him in the eyes.

And here's the thing. He does the same with you. He does the same with you. One of the strongest declarations, if not the strongest one of the gospel of John of Jesus divinity comes from Thomas. It comes from a man who wrestled the hardest. And if you are wrestling with this stuff, if you are wrestling with your twin, it is not the opposite of faith. I honestly believe this with everything aside of me. It is the doorway to a deeper faith. It is the doorway to a deeper relationship with God. If you're honest, if you're honest and wrestle with this, because church history would tell us Thomas would end up going all the way to India. The one that that's remembered so much because of his doubt was the one that went the furthest out of all of the disciples. Which tells me this, you wrestling doesn't disqualify you from your purpose. You wrestling with things doesn't disqualify you from God using you and using your story and speaking to you and lifting your spirits. Just know he looks you in the eyes. And he says, go ahead, I'm going to meet you right where you're at. And with all of the struggles that you're feeling. And then at the end, he says, hey, hey, Thomas, I love he goes, hey, listen, you're blessed because you see, but there are going to be people that don't see and they'll be even more blessed. That's you and I. That's you and I. He's talking about people after he has ascended to heaven. Now, here's what I love. Here's what I see with that. Jesus says, hey, Thomas, I know you struggled, but even in that struggle, I'm going to use

this line for people to be encouraged for all of eternity. Amen. shows me even in our struggles, nothing is wasted. With Jesus, nothing is wasted. Hey, listen, I've tried to put together a few different twins. I didn't wanna go the cliche route of like, hey, the twin of like the one, the part of me that wants to do good and the part of me that doesn't wanna do good. We know that. Romans 7 talks so much about that. If you struggle, and I know we all do, hey, there's part of me that wants to do right and there's a part of me that doesn't do right and I feed into that. Go read Romans 7. I wanted to bring something different with Thomas. Just talk about this twin that you're wrestling, man. And you're like, and sometimes, man, listen, I deal with this all the time. There's days where I am full of faith and there's days where I'm like, God, why have you forsaken me? There's days where I'm like, Lord, I hear you. And there's days where I'm like, I can't hear you. Literally, if you were standing in this room, I don't feel like I could hear you. There's days where I live to what Jesus has called me as and there's days that I've lived up to labels

that I've put on myself and other people have put on me. It's this wrestling, man. There's days it's clear, there's days I'm confused. There's days I'm in community, there's days I'm in isolation. I'm preaching to myself with all this. It's this twin, this friggin' twin that I wrestle with all the time. You could use this a thousand different ways. I just hope it spoke to you. I really do. That's my whole heart. And I want to say this. If you have never accepted Jesus as your personal Lord, meaning King, as your personal Savior, meaning this, there's nothing you could do to receive forgiveness except through Him. Here's what I love about Jesus is He doesn't wait for you to come to Him. He's already pursued you. The very fact that you are watching this right now is proof that some dude sitting in St. Augustine, Florida and Northeast Florida is speaking to you is proof that God is pursuing you right where you're at. If you've never given your life to Christ, there's a button right below. I encourage you to do that. Give your life to Christ. Start this journey. Here on the Pando app,

there are so, so, so many different resources to help you grow in that. Of course, we put this show out every single week to help you grow in that and to make you laugh and to have fun and to play random music, mainly to make you grow in your relationship with Jesus. So I want to make that clear. But I just want to say, man, if you've never done it, take that step. If you have and you're wrestling with this, man, get wisdom, as it says. Get understanding. Dive deeper. Go read John 11, John 14, John 20, and let it speak to you. See yourself in the story and let it speak to you as well. Also, I think I said this earlier, the discipleship course we're putting together, I'm hoping it is out soon. But because I have to type stuff up with it, so I'm gonna take some messages that I taught before just to our church that I really think are basic discipleship things. But it has me typing some teaching up with it, so that's taking just a little bit more time. But anyhow, be looking for that on here as well. Now, y'all know what time it is. Oh, you know what time it is. Oh, you know what time it is. It's shout-out time!

Let's do it. Let's do it. Let's do it. Let's do it. Let's do it. All right, here we go, shout out time is shout out time. First of all, men of the forge. Thank you so much. I got this in. Thank you guys. Got my my chain. Oh yeah. I just put this thing on, got that chain around my neck. How's that song go? Do your chain hang low? Does it wobble to the floor? Can you tie it in a bow? Seriously, guys, thank you so much. Like, I thought this was as cool as ever that you guys would make something like this. Send it to me. And the other champion one as well. Thank you. Put that up there. Set it here. Also, shout out to Reston Burke for the Trevor Bills. Like, are you kidding me? Like, I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding.

I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. Are you kidding me? How frigging awesome is that? Also, I'm going to say this, don't get mad if you drew me a picture and I didn't highlight it. Okay? I didn't expect to get pictures and all that kind of cool stuff, which is awesome. So right now, I am trying to figure out how to put that stuff together to display it here on the show. Anyhow, men of the Forge, thank you so much. Here we go. Brother Randall Fowler, a.k.a Tree Top in Charlotte, CI. Christopher Emanuel says, give a huge, huge, huge shout out to the ministry mentors and New Mexico, the Barneys, the Purples. Keep changing the culture from the inside, is what he says. Keep choosing patience over pride, love over ego, omission over mood. Oh, yeah. Purple Chris loves you and misses you and ready to get back. That's great stuff. Corey Hartsell and the guys at the Mac Alford Correctional Center. What's going on to you as well?

Jose Elias Perez Guerrero, a.k.a. Diablo wants to make sure. We shout out the ladies of Thank Nation and Spread Ladies. Not sure who they are, but shout out to you. Shout out to ... I love how Jose's like, shout out the ladies. Also George, Bama, Roll Tide, Augusta. What is going on? Tyler Skaggs and also noticing the typo, felt like an idiot. Thank you so much. Let's go down here. I gave Randall Fowler one. What's up, brother? Kevin Sanceri and all of his brothers that he left behind at E2. Got to talk to him the other day. Great. Thank you for watching. Joe Dart. What's going on? Ray J. Gomez. Thank you for watching, brother. Jordan DeJesus and Berti CI. Jordan DeJesus is what his name is. Jordan DeJesus and Berti CI. Leslie Lambert and Missoula, I think that's how you say that, Missoula County. Brian C. a.k.a. Fishbone. Thank you so much for being a part of what we're doing. Bobby Duval. Dunbar what's going on? Gumby and his fiance, Bunny. What's going on?

And then Flamas de Fuego, Flamas de Fuego. Now listen, again, don't get mad because I didn't show yours on here, guys and girls. I literally just opened this up. Thank you so much for these. I think that's cool as all. Get out. Thank you. Seriously. That's Flamas de Fuego. What's going on? All right. Let's pull up the next list. I need to put these on. Gosh, do I need them? Do I need them? All right. Jayla, Jeffrey Lewis, everyone. The number one shout out to everybody at Champion. What's up? Victoria Carrero at the Hobby Unit. Almost thought that said Hobby Lobby. Leah Bell and I got to make this. Hold on. I got to make this a little bit bigger because it's hard for me to read. Okay. Sorry about that. I think that says Leah Bell in Pianistate. Gosh, I can't read that. In Pianistate, whatever unit. Shout out to you.

Thank you so much. Bethany Meade and Liz Robin at Halbert Unit 5 and all Footprints Peer Support Specialists and all Texas Prison Units, 6 Shirley Heard and then also Shirley Heard and Jayla, Jeffrey Lewis. She says that is me. Awesome. All right. So Ruben, Ruben Omelas, Ruben aka Ranger, Mighty Mouse, all Field Ministries. life coaches in the entire faith-based dorm at the Ellis unit was going I feel like I've given y'all shout outs a ton uh kf supreme and the ladies of the tank I love tank nation at the Odell unit and gets I love how y'all just shouting out like what's up ladies what's up guys like that's that's cool I like it I like I'm here for it uh Lamar Lamar Alton airborne at pier to pier at Columbia CI that's that stands for Correctional Institute is what that stands for uh William G Hill and he says listen and all the inmates in the nation and all around uh fighting for appeals that's what William G Hill said oh bill oh BG Hill says that he says shout out to all you guys um also Jose I forgot to say this Jose Perez says you got 41 on your birthday uh also give a shout out to Nick Neely Juanelo J Jose G or Juanelo G Jose G Chaplain G on Riverton unit man a lot of G's around there a lot of G's uh Buddy Yates Cherokee and Big 7 at Gransville Correctional uh he gave me the nickname T-Mac I mean I was gonna say something funny but thank you buddy I appreciate it thank you buddy seriously um Joshua McDowell in the Nevada Missouri boys pronounce na-va-da na-va no my bad I pronounced it wrong na-ve-da na-ve-da na-ve-da I feel like I screwed that up too but awesome thank you Joshua for uh watching and connecting uh Christian Broken McDavid at Larry Just Unit A 746 and that's right after 745 Christopher Cloud what's going on and the Humperdink boys the Humperdink boys at Choice Moore unit the Humperdink Humperdink my bad Humperdink boys I don't know why I'm saying Humperdink that's a fun word to say I'm just gonna say it to random people I'm gonna go to the gas station and they're gonna say uh sir it's $2.79 I said well how about I pay that Mrs. Mr. Humperdink okay what the freak am I doing I don't know what I'm saying like I got time to tell stupid stories about me going to the I'm not gonna go to the gas station uh anyhow uh where was I where I was at sorry sorry sorry

uh Humperdink boys uh Choice Moore unit uh Lauren Caldill I should have made the font on this bigger I am really sorry y'all I really should have done that because I've screwed myself over I can't read it Lauren Caldill and the rest of the ladies oh love them the rest of them at the Murray unit what's going on what's going on Randall Hatcher Randall Hatcher uh shout out to Randall Biscuit Hatcher and the whole Sanchez unit in El Paso and that's in Texas is where right El Paso Texas or yeah uh that's where that is Randy Moore aka Lil Randy and silly Charles aka Chuck or CJ what's going on to you guys uh as well let's go Brandon Montgomery shout out to little okay sorry uh Brandon Montgomery shout out Lil Dicky, Bear, G, Giancarlo, Frank with all the A's that's all of them uh Played aka Playo and the entire chapel team sorry my bad I didn't realize you're on the chapel team what's up to you guys thank you so much I feel like this shirt's a little tight I actually here's what happened uh last night we got takeout because you know health uh we're healthy we're really not um but the lord blessed us and gave us two meals um I really feel bad for the people behind us I've imagined they got their meal but and you would say Trevor didn't you realize that we really didn't realize it and then we got home and we had all this food and um you would say oh Trev do you understand portion control ha ha it's freaking cute all right here we go um Brandon Blomquist Blomquist shout out to Big Body, John, Moose, Bobby, Sylve, OG, Roger, Seth and all the homies at Wallace and Caldwell County uh Laura Messick what's going on Laura Messick shout out to Amber Jackson Hill Amber Jackson Hill top unit in the entire Echo Z, Doom, Gatesville. My bad. Let me try that all again. Okay, Amber Jackson, what's going on at Hilltop Unit and the entire Echo Z Dorm? My God, I need to freaking make this font bigger. That did nothing. Crap. I wonder if I can do this. The Lord's good, y'all. He's good. All right. Sorry, Amber Jackson, Hilltop Unit and the entire Echo Z Dorm in Gatesville. Shout out to Hillbilly and Slaughter. That's Billy Henderson, Hillbilly and Slaughter. Jason Sumner. Shout out Father Jeff, Brother Ben, Preacher Deasy, Preacher Deasy, Minister Maddox. A whole bunch of disciples running around here. Minister Maddox, Zelezay, Deacon Dee, Recovery Ryan, Reverend Ray, Pastor Jay. He goes, that's me. So what's going on, Jason? Thank you for doing that, Pastor Jay. And the Bravo 300, Hermanondo County. What's going on to you guys as well? Thank you so much for watching and being a part of what we're doing.

Stacy Jamison in the Valley Unit. What's going on? Santana Percival. What's going on? The Saved Criminal is what he calls himself. Damien Sawyers, the whole peer to peer program and Ashley Kelly. That is coming from, you know what I'm going to do because I learned how to just do this. Let's make the font bigger. That's Damien Sawyers. That's what he's saying. That's what he is saying. Reese Shadow Howell. What? I don't know what note I put there. Would you, would like you, I wrote this note, would like me to add a childhood memory of a slingshot to shelf behind you when you film. I don't have a slingshot. Also the boy in the Bido unit in Palestine, Texas. Zachary Allen, Zach Bill, Al Allen, professor at Brick A's unit in the Brickyard. Dube South. What's going on? Nicholas Robinson, Slick Nicky and the guys in the PLUS program in Miami. Welcome to Miami Correctional Facility. What's going on? Nicholas, what's going on? Oh, I got to get that prime in me. Ronald Franz, Ronald Franz. Give a shout out to Johnny five of Victor Valley at Caulfield unit. Johnny five, Victor Valley, Caulfield unit. What is going on? All right. Which one did I just do? Okay, sorry. Wade Seabolt, group shout out with the shades on. Boy, you know, Wade, you know we got them shades on. Oh, got them on, Wade. I got to have them on. Wade, group shout out with the shades on to Wade Seabolt structured living program. G pod one section, Michael unit. What's up? Oh, what's going on to you guys? Bobby Lofton, thank you so much, man, for watching. Ryan Caldwell, a.k.a. Big Dog B.C. and friend, Michael Hegg, a.k.a. Smiley. Smiley, what's going on? Christopher Manuel already gave you a shout out, already gave you a shout out. Christopher got me a gift. I think that's what we were talking about with him in the forge earlier. So already covered that.

Kevin E. Matthew. Gabriel Kampala, Gabriel Kampala. He goes by Chewy and wants to give a shout out to a guy named Prince who just found God. Since Prince turned himself into a symbol. Prince, what's going on? You just found God. How friggin awesome is that? Gabriel says, what's up? Shout out to you, man. How cool is that? Man, just found the Lord. I love it. Seriously, I absolutely love it. Joshua Dill, Joshua Dill, Joshua Dill. Joshua Big Texas Dill in the 2G pod in OCJ. I know you just went to court, so I don't know if you're watching or not. But thanks so much. Bobby Burton Jr., what's going on? He's asked for, okay, I wrote this down. He hasn't heard one yet, so please give him one. Bobby Burton Jr. at King County, King County Correctional Facility. Bobby Burton, BBJ. Bobby Burton Jr. Hey, and you know what? You made a good point here. Bobby, hey, I've asked for a shout out a few times, haven't got it. Guys, sometimes, hey, I screw up. Here's the crazy part. Here's, I don't even know if you're gonna believe this. I'm human. So Bobby, thank you for being kind. Thank you for being like, hey man, you miss me. Add me back to it.

I'm gonna miss it, guys. I'm gonna miss it. But it doesn't mean I don't love you any less or any of that kind of stuff. Just be like, Trev, give me a friggin' shout out. And I'm gonna be like, hey, I'm gonna give you a friggin' shout out, all right? I love doing this. I love doing this. I gotta hurry. I gotta hurry. David McGovern, he wants a shout out. Call him DJ. Charlotte County, Florida. DJ, what's going on? David McGovern. Ben Gordon, he wants to, he wants to pray for his bunkmate that goes by Anibal Cortez, a.k.a. Cuco King Q, who has heart problems and possible cancer. Please give them both a shout out. Okay, so we're gonna pray for your bunkmate by Anibal Cortez Jr., a.k.a., is that Cucco? Cucco? Whatever, you know who I'm talking about. King Q, who has heart problems and possibly cancer. And please give them both a shout out. That's from Ben Gordon.

Oh, all right, let's pray. Let's pray right now. Seriously, we screw around a lot, but let's pray. Never forget that it is always about Jesus. God, right now, we just come to you and we pray for Anibal Cortez. You know who he is, Jr. And King Q, both of them going through some stuff. Father, we just lift them up to you today. And where I'm sitting at, that we will send the word to them right there for comfort, for healing. We believe that you are the ultimate healer. And we just pray for them in this moment that they just feel your presence, even right now, as I'm recording this at 11.19 a.m. Eastern Standard Time on February 25th. Father, I pray that you are with them right now. And we just declare healing over them and that their spirits will be lifted. And we pray for Ben, too, for Ben Gordon that would write in for his friends, for his bunkmate, for those that are around him. I would just pray a special blessing over him, as well. In Jesus' name, everybody say it. Amen, feels like we're in church. Michael Casares, shout out his wife and kids, Roxanne. Micaiah Insme and Adrian, your husband and dad loves and misses you, how cool is that, from Michael Casares, I don't know if I'm saying that right.

Again, shout out his wife and kids, Roxanne. Micaiah, I mean, oh, I suck at reading. Insme and Adrian, hey, your dad says what is up, he loves and misses you, dad and husband says what's up. Zubalon Rosandal, oh, I read this, I want to see a zoo or workout routines on your show. First of all, I only work out a little bit. Love where your heart is. I don't think you're talking about me, though. I know, I was just being selfish. Zoo is actually, we're gonna do something, we're gonna do the alligator farm soon. It just has to, it's still like frosting outside. Them big old dinosaurs ain't moving. Also, okay, so he says shout out to Z Money, Z Money, Flats, Ray, I'm Making McCall and Harold and Kuffman and J-O-C-O, they don't think I'll do it, ha, ha. They said I don't think you'll do it. Well, I did it, big boys. J Money, Flats, Ray, in the making, McCall, also Harold and Kumano and J-O-C-O, I did it, boys. Michael Winner, Michael Winner, okay, he says, instead of a shout out, say gigamatties, he's a Texas and A&M fan and thinks it's funny that he is talking to a Texas Longhorn fan for comfort. Love that, Michael, but there is no way in God's, there is no way if hell freezes over right now that I'm even gonna say that. Jeffrey Plunkett, Jeffrey Plunkett, 19W pod on all red unit, that's one more than 18,

that's a 19W pod on all red unit. Juan Hernandez in pod four and all the veterans in Gatesville, Texas, that's Juan Hernandez, what's going on? Benjamin Michael McGungy, local guy from St. Augustine, shout out, McCall Thorne, Hardy, aka Hard White, and Justin Crouse, what's going on to you guys? Angel Mercado, thank you so much, Margaret Mayer, thank you so much, Kyle, true love, thank you, Jesse Fuhrer, aka Uncle Jesse, also all my friends in the five barracks at the Larry B. Norris unit, Nick Cox and three, Pete and Aaron Rush, woo, Uncle Jesse, all my friends in the five barracks, that's one more than four at the Larry B. Norris unit, Nick Cox and three, Pete. Aaron rash not rush my bad Aaron rash Prometheus lamb and the homies on the Ferguson unit J block what's going on Alyssa parts parts parts ch Asking for prayers. Okay. First of all, Alyssa already like you. That's my little sister's name is Alyssa Prayers of strength father. We pray for Alyssa right now For first strength. What did she ask for to do? Let me prayers for strength prayers and strength father We just pray for Alyssa right now, wherever she's sitting at behind bars that we send the word to her in that moment She feels strengthened. There's just something that just comes about her she won't even know until she watches this later that we were praying for her in Jesus name and everybody said a Man all right, call this man what's going on? Also Chris Craig shout out Chris and de Adam Hale shout out to Adam Hale as Santa Rosa Robert Bono shout out all of

Safekeeping on the all-red unit in Iowa Park and the lost sheep of Israel Zach. Alright, so shout out Robert Bono and oh Live the safekeeping on the all-red unit in Iowa Park And lost sheep of Israel Zach Brandon Sanchez shout out to Brandon Sanchez James Hodge shout out to breezy KD, which is Eric Darby What's going on James Hodge says shout out to breezy KD in there, which is Eric Hardy Travis Pagan What does he say shout out Spend your money wisely buy investments that grow in compound Brit. Okay. Amen. I mean, I just I love that. Amen, brother Amen, Brittany Disney what's going on and Elizabeth and Eric? Mona Nelson Mona Nelson the Pleasant Palate shout out to Pleasant Palate for your support Steve ruffling chaplain Yvonne Ruffling. Sorry if I'm messing that up. Seriously. I'm sorry Lane Murray units in Gatesville Tech Man, a lot of people from old Gatesville, Texas from the BBs Kincaid Atkins shout out cooch fabu Jack boy Vaughn black boy. I'm reading that there. I didn't say it. He said it I didn't say it and ghosts at FSP on CM. That's from Kincaid Atkins Cooch fabu Jack boy Vaughn black boy and ghosts at FSP on CM Dylan Logan. What's going on? John now Alex share Jimmy microwave brocks. What a gosh. That's good Tommy boy Dan dirty mouth watch your mouth Dan Bucky Dylan D long Logan Tyrese Pratt aka blue and oh Of the lower G pod six What's going on? Nicholas names? Shout out to brothers KG KB DC Sherman little Burke big six G Mac 7 crown Royal Baker boy over at Scotland Correctional that's from Nicholas names KG KB DC Sherman little Burke big six G max 7 crown Royal Baker boy Over at Scotland Correctional Cameron a her shout-out to Cameron a her name Brooke Mace what's going on? Chris Kennedy shout-out to Chris Kennedy and st Joe, Missouri and bunkmate Thomas Hughes, but prayers for his girlfriend Katie Aldridge who is going through a tough time God We lift up Katie Aldridge to you right now who is going through a tough time

We just pray that she feels your presence and that's something that she feels your goodness moving towards her in Jesus name. Everybody said you guessed it a Man, Christopher Lee Leach shout-out to Christopher Lee Leach Colby Roth talk Shout out Colby Roth talking is in his cellmate Austin Craig Turner aka Otto Colby is in a huge fight against cancer and has lived 22 months more than the expected death rate. Oh my gosh. That is absolutely incredible, dude. Shout out to you, man Just praying for you for strength right now, what a battle you're in Daniel McCormick Daniel McCormick Brett Bowman and everyone all of them at Mountain View CI what's going on? Dijon Dijon Anderson shout-out to Dijon Anderson and Louisville Metro Corrections Demick Nichols shout-out to Demick Nichols and I'm a real oh Sky Amarillo, Texas Eric Gleason shouted to Eric and everyone in the Tarrant County Jail He said everybody all of you in Tarrant County. What's up? All right Tyree Valdez shout-out Tyree Valdez aka drip Aka drip. Hey, I know you said I wrote a few times didn't get response Shout out let you know buddy I see ya. I see ya. I see ya. I see ya. And that's what I was talking about earlier. That's exactly what I was talking about earlier. Man, sometimes crap happens. Like my boy Hatcher sends me a picture of the birthday cake of me smashing the birthday cake and never got it. Friggin' sucks, alright? Life is always friggin' lifin'. Promise you. But thank you, Tyree, for writing back in. Howard Overby. Shoutout to Howard Buckshot Overby. And all of D-Pod Face, Oklahoma, where the wind comes sweepin' down the plain. Highland Hill, Beast, Mark, Irish, De Niro, Chemical, Oso, and Fortre. That's from Howard Overby. Howard, that's from Howard Buckshot Overby. All of D-Pod, D-Pod Face, excuse me, in Oklahoma, Highland Hill, Beast, Mark, Irish, De Niro, Chemical, Oso, and Fortre. James Greenwood. Shoutout to JamesQuickShot114. That's one more than 113, Greenwood. Jerry Asbell. Shoutout to Jerry Asbell, a.k.a. Nemo. Shoutout to Jesse Stone. What's goin' on? Shoutout to Kerry Malicki.

Kerry Malicki. Shoutout to K.O. and Christopher, a.k.a. Chino. And all the guys, all of the guys in S-8, LaPorte County Jail. I wonder if I had a counter of how many screwed up names, like names that I screwed up, where someone started kinda like, you messed that one up, messed that one up, messed that one up. Laura Haggerty. Shoutout to Laura, Lisa, and Angie at Homestead. Shoutout to y'all as well. Thank you for watching. Pedro Villareal. Shoutout to Pedro. 12 Building, F-Pod, Pratt, Eastside, Thru, Dre, 210 Live, VL Trouble, 12 Building, C-Pod, Tommy Boy, Cody East, Dallas, Jamal, 2-2, and Trouble B. Anthony, Anthony Hebert. Anthony Hebert. Shoutout to Rice, Hustle, Matt, Valuko, Richard, Baby, Loke, JJ, Terrence. Terrence, that's you. Bueno, Tattoos, Mr. Carter, Chubbs. Mr. Carter, excuse me, Chubbs. Nah. Pew, pew. Pew, pew. Long, Rocky, Jay, Monty, Moe, Connor, Yuck, C-Dub, and Trey. Whoa, what's going on? Anthony Hebert. Shoutout to Ron. Rice, Hustle, Matt, Valuko, Richard, Baby Oak, JJ, Terrence. Bueno, Tattoos, Mr. Carter, Chubbs. Nah. Pew, pew. Long, Rocky, Jay, Monty, Moe, Connor, Yuck, C-Dub, and Trey. Richard Taylor. Shoutout to Rich and Cornbread. Gosh, do I love Cornbread. Oh, do I love it. I like it sweet, though. Sean Stuller. Shoutout to Sean Stuller. George, George, Villa Gomez Gonzales. Shoutout to Spring Valley, New York. Y'all getting some snow. This week, the B-Wing crew at RCJ. What's going on? Steven Rourke. Shoutout to Steven Rourke and everybody. Oh, he said everyone. And Dorm 3 SAP at GRCC in Central City, Kentucky. That's where we're shouting out everybody. Steven Rourke said everybody in Dorm 3 SAP at GRCC in Central City, Kentucky. Thomas Eric Hyde. Shoutout to Thomas Eric Hyde. What's going on? Shoutout to Tiffany Toribio. She said last name's pronounced Tori-B-O, aka Turbo. Okay, makes a lot of sense. Shoutout to Tiffany Toribio. Tiffany Toribio, aka Turbo. Jennifer Du. Shoutout to Tinker Bell and J-Lo. Come on. Come on. We got Tinker Bell and J-Lo watching. Thank you so much, Jennifer and Tinker Bell. I think one of that is maybe you're all the same. I don't really know. And J-Lo, maybe you're J-Lo, Jennifer. I'm not really sure. Thank you for watching. Charles Zayas. Shoutout to the worship crew, Charles, Joe, Bill, and Chow. Shoutout to y'all. Charles, Joe, Bill, and Chow with Charles Zayas. Candice Bald Eagle. Shoutout Candice Bald Eagle, Daddy Solo, and all the ladies at the Spro. I can't say it without them. And all the ladies at the Springer C-S-C-C. Shoutout to Catfish in Amarillo, Texas. Amarillo, Texas. And the whole ECB. A shoutout Bill Clements unit. And a special shoutout from Catfish to Gasper Little Murphy Hypo Mac on K-Pod. Shoutout to y'all from Joshua Preston.

Shout out Teresa green. Oh my gosh, miss Teresa. You gave me some All right, I'm gonna run through this you ready this is who Teresa says shout out Okay, the man at Mountain View CI and spruce pine, North Carolina the the Macon County, North Carolina boys Michael Roland Jason mark Carl Floyd James Hughes Eddie Fusco David Birch Axel Mangone Jonathan Taley Josh schooler Austin Dyer cooked my brother Tim green as century CI and century, Florida my Alabama, man, she's got Tony W Rogers, Alabama man. That's her Alabama, man Chloe Kim Tim at NCCI W Raleigh, North Kakalaki Adrian Carver at Macon County Jail and all the other gals and guys at Macon County Jail She said all of them if you're a girl if you're a guy She said all of you and Macon County Jail all the ladies on the arson CI and poked in North, Kakalaki, North Carolina Stand up You already know all the ladies at the NCCI W in Raleigh, North Carolina All the men and the woman men and women at 33 Street Jail in Orlando, Florida It's coming from mr. Issa green. Thank you so much Tim Vance shout out to Tim that likes to Tim Vance and likes to dance Tim Vance and likes to dance Vincent Giovanni is where that sounds out geo from ER DCC. What's going on Vincent geo from ER DCC? Melanie Lyman shout out. She says shout out Jesus my lord. What's up, Lord? Charlie five Plains State unit and my girl OG at Marlin unit, Texas Melanie Lyman says that James Murray shout out Jimbo Murray Valentine Hernandez jr Ryder e gas Damien aka worm Dyer and everyone at the burlette innovative unit and bar let Texas What's going on to y'all Joshua? We're a friend Rosie shout out to Joshua a lot from Rosie and Trevor at Tomoka work camp Trevor put Joshua on To you on the pando app. Thank you so much. First of all, great friggin name Trevor. Thank you so much Joshua Thanks for jumping on board of what we're doing here. Keith Marino. Shout out to Keith Shrek Marino and his brother Cody Marino shout out to Marciana Brock. I

Said black and Brock last time she thought it was funny But once another shout out cuz I screwed it up. Alright, shout out her bunky crust Krusty I thought that said Krusty. I was like that can't be right Krusty what's going on? Marciana Brock? Shout out bunking Krusty Spongebob Squidsworth and Amanda Miller what's going on? Brianna Carpenter shout out soul mama Soul mama breeze soul mama breeze. So I like that Timothy Kennedy's shout out Timothy aka flip and his friend me go G Trent Huggins shout out Trent the one and only at Tomoka Tomoka is getting a couple of shout outs here Trent down there at Tomoka the one and only work cam wage-aid low shadow aged load aka special Zachary Brooks aka pole polo and KCMO and his son Waylon Brooks. Thank you so much Thank you so much for that also shout out Cody boasts for it, I don't know if I'm saying that right Cody boasts for it again. I know you sent another letter letter in as well. Thank you so much Also shouting out casino Christopher while de la casino Christopher. I've given you a shout out Christopher. Don't even try me Okay, guys, I'm literally out of time. I've got to get back to work if you didn't know I work Let me see. How close am I? Okay. All right Okay, I don't do this for a living I do this on lunch today has been a long lunch Especially I took it a little early cuz you boy. I want to get a good episode in Okay, let me hit these real quick this last few Cody Westmoreland. This is What's going on to you buddy Cody Westmoreland he's asking for a shout out and for prayers man Cody I just pray in the same way we have with everybody else that God is speaking to you wherever you're at that even in this moment even like it's as silly as it sounds that even father as I was About to just move on and get back to work that you would have me stop so we could say and pray for Cody We just pray for your peace and your strength and somehow for joy to be there with him right now Wherever he is and that this this moment this this second right here will be something That just encourages him in his faith in Jesus name everybody said Amen

Travis pagan Travis pagan combat vet. Thank you so much, buddy. Thank you. Seriously. So so much for what you Travis Hicks Who says I remind him of Michael Buffer and let's let's get ready to rumble Chris Vandenstein Chris Vandenstein shout out to Vandy aka birthshire builder Chris and the Bravo unit at BCHC Also prayers for his father with stage 4 prostate cancer, okay Okay, all right Stage 4 prostate cancer. His name is Maurice. All right. So Chris you said your dad's got stage 4 prostate cancer Let's pray for him right now father. We just stop and we pray For Chris's dad Maurice right now as he's going through this cancer that he's fighting and and and I mean literally father I know that was Cancer is never your plan and we thank you that you are the healer and we just pray For Chris and his father right now We send the word of healing that you are the healer and we just ask that you do what only you can do and even This moment that you give that family peace and strength and and just unconditional joy even in this season in Jesus name everybody said Amen, all right, Shane Audrey Shane Audrey what's going on? Aka slingo? Anthony Joe Casas Anthony Joe Casas once Okay, all right, I see all right, okay. Yes, absolutely Michael Tory here we go Michael Tory aka Birdman Birdman a fly. How's it go? Birdman a fly in any weather? I love man. I used to love What's that song? Oh Okay, Birdman at Union C IV dorm V that's not to that's a B for V dorm Alexander Kordich Alexander also goes by Sid from the Ice Age movie Yeah, okay want some planes or helicopters

Okay, we'll see what we can do a Jacob Foster Like a shout out to the guys watching in the Hawkins unit and Waitsville Arkansas Waitsville, Arkansas Brandon Savage prayers for a safe transfer and protection I don't know if it's happened yet but if not father I pray you are with Brandon and his in his transfer for safety and protection in Jesus name You guessed it. Amen. John. I John buddy Putting this in here No way, I can pronounce this sabagar Ratha, but Judy, I don't even sounds like I'm praying in tongues brother All right, but here's how he said to do it. Okay, his name his nickname. He is fine with a spaghetti John spaghetti But here's how you pronounce it. All right, Saba Ray B. Ah team My bad dude, seriously my bad Saw a sad boss sounds like bah humbug saw bah rah B. Oh T buddy Holy crap your whole life. You've had to explain that to people man. Good for you, dude. Good for you, John Thank you for being a part of what we're doing here. Seriously. Can't be molar Kami molar. Thank you. So or more you're not molar. I mean gosh Samuel Womack Samuel Womack Oh Samuel you said video on Islam the difference between Islam belief and Christian belief We have a video closer than you know coming out with that. I'm calling it Jesus versus everyone That would be fun. All right last few last few got to wrap this up Josiah weak Yvonne and Perez Joseph Fritz Christopher Rowe Derek Price Clay Johnson Kyle Z Coleman Dakota McClain Derek this is a Derek Price even full or Evan cheese Evan forward Sorry, Kevin a Larson and Travis pagan. I think I gave you one earlier Travis

No, if not, thank you all so so much for being a part of what we are doing. Seriously. It means the world of course Shout out to those that have been down from day one Alexander what's going on? Micah? What's going on? Mike Torres? Thank you so much big Jakari Mills Thank you the black ox and the whole lot. I know the program. Thank you guys You're getting the motorcycles today because of y'all asking Randall Fowler, thank you Byron thank you so much. Jeffrey Austin George Augusta already gave you a shout out, but seriously Thank you so much for being a part miss Cynthia miss Cindy Lou I think I gave Gumby one earlier Bradley Wolfe James Preston Bales. Thank you so much, Justin Parrish David Henson DJ and I already did Tyler Scott I want to make sure, hitting as many people as I can, Russell Rowe, thank you brother for always being a part of it and writing as well. Let me make sure, anybody I miss, I know you're going to be pissed. Anybody I miss, that's going to be my next t-shirt. Anybody I miss, I know you're going to be pissed. Anybody I miss, you're going to be pissed. Eddie Johnson, thank you so much as always for writing in. I love talking to you. William Ruby, what's going on as well? Alright, and I thank God everybody else. Eddie Johnson, I just gave Big Eddie a shout out. Alright, thank you guys. Care about you. Love you guys. Joshua Gilbert, good to connect with you again. The other day, love all of you tremendously. Now, we are going to jump into some different things. I got something very, very, very, very, very special at the very end of this. Let's jump in. Alright, here we go.

Let's wrap it up with this. I have never, ever, ever, ever, ever done anything like this, but a couple, man, I don't know how long ago it was now. A couple months, we haven't been on here that long, a couple months ago, a gentleman named Jeffrey Hatcher reaches out to me. We connect. He draws me this, this really cool picture in the very beginning and I loved it. I loved it so much. And then he sent two others and I'm missing the birthday cake one. Frick you U.S. mail. Just kidding. I love you U.S. mail. God bless you. I didn't mean that. Anyhow, the point is this. able to speak with him and pour into him and him, him even speaking and pouring in things into me. He's always been incredibly genuine as well. And I just thought it was really cool. Um, you know, who would have thought this time last year, who would have thought that I would have this connection with somebody all the way down in Arcadia, Florida. I don't even, I had to ask him that because I don't even know where the heck that is. And uh, anyhow, the point is this, we start talking and he brings up, uh, this, this, this nice young lady named Billy Joe that he is in love with and he brings it up and he says, Hey man, you would not believe, uh, I forget exactly how he said it, but just how much he was in love with her. And he said something that stuck out to me big time. I didn't expect this. He says, I don't have any regrets. He goes, everything that happened, I don't have any regrets.

The only regret is I had was not marrying her. And so we start processing this stuff and because here's, here's my heart, like that's what I want to do. Like I want to help people champion every season of their life. That's why, that's why we literally exist and we start processing this stuff. And he said a few things and I was like, Hey man, let's hold off on that. Let's press pause on that. And we just keep pouring in and we keep having these conversations, keep having this conversations. And every time he's talking about Billy Joe and her family, talking about how much, uh, iron sharpening. iron between them two and all that kind of stuff. And then we were able to have another conversation. I said, Hey, let's go back to the first one. Let's talk about this. And that's really, really, really, uh, I don't know. It prayerfully and respectfully approached this. And here's what he said. He said, Trevor, would you do me a favor? And he laid it out. And in that moment, I said, no, but today is the day. He said, Trevor, would you ask Billy Joe for me through this right here, if she would marry me? So Jeffrey Hatcher is asking Billy Joe, will you marry him? If the answer's no, this is going to be awkward. Okay. If the answer is yes, congratulations. I already told you guys I would do the wedding just because I love a good party. Uh, but anyhow, Hatcher, absolutely love you, brother. I love how close we have gotten through this time. Never would have thought about it.

And Billy Joe can't wait to meet you one day as well. Hopefully say yes. I imagine you are going to communicate somehow and figure it out from here. But I was thinking of a good wedding song to close out. And I thought about that movie, uh, hitch and that, that, that end wedding song was good. I thought about forever by Chris Brown as well, but I've already used his stuff. Uh, but I thought this song would be perfect for it. So until next time, God bless you guys. If you're wrestling with your twin, man, do it with the Lord and, uh, let his grace help you through all of it. I love you guys so much. We'll see you right here. Uh, as the old show would say, same bad time. Well, we don't know that I'm not always best with that. But same channel until next week. God bless you guys. We love you.