00:00I couldn't decide if my kids were better off with an addict as a father or no father at all. I was a big frat-type partier, drinker, and fell into the wrong crowd. Cocaine was introduced to my life, started as fun, and then as time went on, it consumed me and took everything away from me. You do unimaginable things that you never thought you were possible doing in addiction. I had called my dealer. I'm sure I lied to my wife to get out of the house. As I was coming up to Crossroads Oakley to meet my dealer, and the sign read, Thursday night baptisms, you have a seat there. I walked into Crossroads, had never been there. You know, I watched people get baptized, come out of that water, and have grace and forgiveness that I just didn't have for myself anymore. I started a recovery program. After I got clean, I hadn't been myself in so long, I didn't even know who I was. When I stepped out of the water, I felt like I had hope for the first time. Like, I wasn't necessarily the person that I had left behind. God's given me everything. Gave my life back. Gave my children their father back. To have respect for myself. What does God call you? God says I'm worthy. He calls me a son.